in absolute why and do I

death comes
and life goes
nine to five six seven eight nine
Why do I have to halt?
for fear to creeps
fear of absence
of hollowed case
of none
none-another
of what and how to feel
what is a grievance?
what is it for?
purging off feelings?
do I have to mourn?
why symbolizing?
do I have to feel?
don't I have to feel?
don't I have to not to feel?
empty, empty, empty
I fear

I fear both
the unarticulated
and the articulated noneness
but death is engineered
in absolute "why"
and "do I"